*sigh*

What do you do when the person you care most about in the world has lost most of what made them special to you, why is it so hard to let go, when its even harder holding on? I feel like I'm losing everyone close to me, and a few little pieces of my mind, ah I hate it.
It's my birthday soon, w00t, I'm having a party so gotta get invites for that sorted, time for more unhealthy distractions methinks.

*ah much better*

Ah, Corey just dropped round, to explain himself to me, and to tell me about some health malfunctions. Well, I can say I feel a bit better now, health is something about his I'm obviously going to be worried about, thats a given, and explaining himself to me, well, that doesn't happen very much so that was rather appreciated.

Ah my mind is like a tornado, fun fun!

Someone once told me people change over time, but over this short a time and this much, tis a shocker. Gotta do something with life soon, sick of seeing it pass me by, though Jacqui's informed me about jobs at her work that might be free soon, money would be good, read this groovy little postcard once that said "Whoever said money couldn't buy happiness, didn't find the right shop", doesn't sound too bad to me.

Can't wait for KittusKattus to arrive down, should be a grand old catch up time for all, plus meetin her new manly man should be intriguing.

Most likely going back to uni mid-semester, apparently the Cas likes hiring uni students, the two are close to each other, just depends on if I'm ready to handle it again, ah too late at night to think about that now, think I may have a drink of a milk and another, yes sounds a much more pleasant option.

Got some on the chase, is interesting, I don't really do much about the offers I get, hopefully that'll change when my income status goes up and I can afford to go out and waste money.

Good Charlotte have a great song in the charts at the moment, gotta say.

Miss everyone, miss talking to everyone, miss seeing people smile because they're happy to see me again, miss hugging all my friends and miss actually living life. Tomorrow's a new day, maybe then huh? Gotta break out of this limbo in life, I was never one for such things when I was younger, and dunno why I live it now. I still hold hope for a happy trouble-free life, and shall aspire for that.

Thankyou if you have endured my intoxicated entry this far, you have my respect, love, and you're most likely female or a sensitive guy... they still exist?? Hehe

Sex, drugs, and rock 'n' roll for all,

Gaz --x-x-x-{@